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see you beloveds ;)

You're the reason for my smile on my face. Your love, makes my world go round.

I feel like a song without the words
A man without a soul
A bird without its wings
A heart without a home
I feel like a knight without a sword
The sky without the sun
cos you are the one

I feel like a ship beneath the waves
A child who's lost its way
A door without a key
A face without a name
I feel like a breath without the air
And every day's the same
since you've gone away

I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are no words that could describe how I miss you
and I miss you everyday
yeah

and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
cos when I'm lying in your arms
I know I'm home

They tell me that a man can lose his mind
Living in the pain
Recalling times gone by
And crying in the rain
You know I've wasted half the time
And I'm on my knees again
'till you come to me
yeah

I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are no words that could describe how I miss you
and I miss you everyday
yeah

and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
I lay my head against your heart
I know I'm home
I know I'm home
I know I'm home

and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
cos when I'm lying in your arms
I know I'm home

If you're not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine, then why does your heart return my call?
If you you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you, then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you, then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me, then why does this distance name my life?
If you're not for me, then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray that you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss your body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breath you into my heart
And I pray for the strength to stand today

'Cause I love you whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And though my heart is by your side

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do

I will be strong, I will be faithful
'Cause I'm counting on
A new beginnin'
A reason for livin'
A deeper meanin', yea

And I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

And when my stars are shinin' brightly in the velvet sky
I'll make a wish to send it to Heaven
Then make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the pleasure in the certainty
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of
The highest powers in lonely hours
(Lonely hours)
The tears devour you

And I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

Oh can't you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cause it's standin' right before you
All that you need will surely come
Uhh hu yea

I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do
(I love you)
Huh huh

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

And I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
Well I want to live like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

Huh huh uhh
Yea uhh huh
La la la duh duh huh
La la la duh duh huh
Uhh hu

Oh well so quickly my days in high school's numbered. Today's finally the last day of term 2, counted as my second last term for the year. Next terms gonna be hectic. I'm so afraid of doing badly. I cried my eyeballz out when i got my report card this morning. I knew i didn't do well alr, but idkw when it was dismissal time, when i was about to walk out of class, my eyes slowly was overwhelmed with tears of regret, disappointment. But, i love my friends they're really great people. Esp yingli who's always there at the right time. Everytime i cried in school, somehow, she'd be the one supplying me tissues and hugs. I can't imagine whats sec school life without a friend like you. Hehe, love you yl :) My darling becca slept through today's school and was absent :( tml marks the start of the june holidayyyyyz :) Which also means its time for me to work hard. Monday's chinese o's, who the hell's revising?! I know shit about that subject. Just gonna concentrate on my meant to ace subjects like my double math, eng, comb science and dnt. Idc if i don't have a life now to you. Idc if i'd be mia from my social networks which i know i'm neglecting really badly alr.

We've been doing practically nothing in school since our mye's ended. All we did was to just sit on ours sits allowing our butts to rot or sleep our sleepy heads off. Life's a bore. I rather have lessons going on! Haven't touched my books or even take a glance at them for ages too! This sucks. Anw had napfa today, as usual it sucked :) I failed shutter run hahaha joke! Was super not satisfied with my sit and reach, i had only 54! :( Joanne got highest for girls, 56! Shermaine was a joke during pull ups, super funny, no actually everyone was funny.Sit ups lucky number was 31 haha. the jumps were like whatever i anyhow jump only hehehe. Dnt's forever rush hour. I rmb how slack we were last year, this year's time seems to fly :( I need helppppppp :(

hehe, pix taken days ago in facebook :*




it was meant for jeramy to laugh at but hahaha whatever. I just felt like posting it :)

I am falling asleep

I'd take your heart with mine, lock em' up tgt and melt the key. We'd belong tgt, forever :)

Weekends passed uber quickly! Overslept today, so didn't go to church. Met kristlyn baby for lunch. Hehehe, she's so cute :) kkkkk so i've rotted this whole week away, haha at last i found myself rotting away. Think i'm most prolly gonna rot more. The sun today was horrible, i wish that the whole of june hols would be raining cats and dogs so i'd feel satisfied staying home mugging :) Kay actually i've nothing to blog. i'm just boredddddddd. Cheena o's in just a week's time! Haha like i care -_- Van baby it's been a year. I miss you so much, where are you? :'(

I spent today with my butt glued to the wooden floor and phone left thrown on my bed. Cut cut glue glue cut glue paste waste strength on the damn glue gun but finally i'm done with the cardboard model, did major changes here and there, i think i'm gonna die when i do the real model. I think i'd even dream of doing it! Anw, i've planned my june hols alr, how exciting (not being sacastic) :) Hehe. Gonna get the 'go back to school' schedule on monday! And yl reminded me that chinese o's like just round the corner, first week of the hols! Die alr luhs :( Most prolly gonna go over to her place on weds the week after this :) Hehe, great. Becca charl and i planned stuff too, but i'd be the most absent one i think hehe sorry baboon gurl. Had ballet ytd, puisan and i were damn funny, stand infront stone awhile then stupid esther and pat behind stone with us!~ ytd was the longest time ever i stayed up to just chat on msn. Showed jeramy alot of funny pictures from the past years, dk how did i bomb so much things to him! o.o Anw, texting my cute baboon cow gurl now, she wants to diet. HAHAHA. Okay, i shall encourage you to eat :D Love you baby1cowbaboongurl hehehe.

Would you give up the entire forest without walking through it all, just for that one?

My two dearest furs wanted to meet me today. Haha and their not related. Sorry wil and mc, i'd meet wilfur when i'm free someday after school soon ok! Haha and mcfur, i hope to see you in school as often as i can. Rmb how we used to be? I miss you. Anyway, i'm really looking forward to my june hols. Though i know that i wouldn't be going out much etcetc. This june holiday's gonna be a time for relaxation and hardwork. Can't wait for yingli to come over to my place like how we used to when we were bestfriends. I'm really happy that we've cleared our misunderstanding. I was really glad when i saw your text ytd. I thought we haven't had hope. Yingli, i'm sorry :( Anw, baking at my place uh! :) Phew, i'm so relieved. I've cleared all my friendship problems. I'm happy with all my friends arnd. Esp,yl. I brought back two cardboards ytd and realised that i could only make 2 big circles and 6 small cylinders with it -_- And my glue gun has issues. I miss mom and dad :( Big sist's coming back with tomyam hiahiahia. Meow's coming along. Guess i'm gonna see him really often these days! Kkkk, time to clear my mess before he comes tgt with my sist. Bye happy humanz ;) Btw, i've made tumblr @gracefurball ;)

Finally, my mye's officially over. I know many idiots had their's over and done with long agoooo but yessss! Mine's over. Hiahiahia. No school tml, marking day. Shiock, i want to sleeeeeep. But still, o's 'round the corner. Sighhh. Can't stop working hard. Just a few more months, lets all work hard. Its gonna be worth it ;) Woke up at 4am this morning to kiss my parents good bye. Sigh, i almost became a cry baby :( Kinda screwed today's dnt paper cos i didn't read up on the 555 timer, 20 marks flyfly :( Haiiiii. Nvrm, its mye. There's still a second chance. HA. Went down to j8 after the papers with jerv and sherm. Had pizzahut for lunch, hehe. Then went to sasa and got new falses. Long time since i've worn them in pictures no? Haha. Kkkkkk, i'm so bored!!!~ Searching on techniques to improve on my pirouettes, i hate to see the word of disappointment written on ms mccully's face every friday evening. I was better then what i am now, i used to be more determined and i used to be one of her favourite girls...

Physics paper wasn't bad at all. Buttttt amaths was killer. Sighhhhhh, i didn't expect it to be that tedious. It was like much more tougher then paper 1. Paper 2 always kills. Damn, i dread for thurs to come. Anw, tml's marks freeeeeeedom. Tehehe, no more papers for afew days? Lol. Chinese o's on the 31st. But wtf cares, i think i've no hope in cheena. Funny to think that i got an A for it during psle. Mom and dad's going hk tml, i'm saddddd. To think of the times when they nag at me, but oh well, its for my own good no? Which parent wouldn't want their child to do good. I hate school days when my parents aren't around. I gotta walk up, go to school, come back from school without them fetching me here and there :( My parents are so sweeeeet to me aren't they? :) Hehe, they always buy me kinder joy when either of them's reminded of me, which is everytime. Hiahia! But, i'm forever a baby in their eyes :( Last 2 papers tml, good luck to all sweeties :)

An album of love.

Hi my lovelies :)

i'm here to blog to tell you how bored i am. Im bored im bored im bored im bored. Shall change my blog layout and haiiii i don't know. I'm like having the post examinations mood alr. Not good not good~ My mye's still dragging :(

Letz see... social studies was damn f up. I threw 14 marks away cos i couldn't finish the damn sbq. And ps it was an easy paper. Nvrm, had emath paper 1 after that, confidence went down down down :( Lit was fine i thinkkkkkk. Chem was extremely 'moley' bth so many questions on mole. Amaths wasn't as bad as expected but i forgot the most basics like binomial, wtfttm. Today's emaths paper like f up only, srsly. I heard everyone's calcultor being stabbed with frustrated lil minds like mine. I threw away so many marks like free only. Hao sad worrrrrz :'(

Weekends must chiong for amaths paper2 and physics and science mcq and dnt. Whyyyyyyyy. K i just realised how late it is alr, no wonder my eye's getting smaller. Yawnz. Shall feed my babies with wormies and drop dead on my bed. Sweeeee, life's great. I'm getting more immuned to my study siao days. I likeyz.

love?

Idkw i'm so free to do so, but i'm looking back at my pictures from 09. Imy, imy so much. I know its not obvious. After so much i've did, i know i've no face left to tell you imy. Its been months since i had a conversation with you. You were my, my bestfriend. I thought back at sec 2, i failed history, i cried so badly, you were the first to come up to me, you were the one that offered me that hug. Our friendship grew. Though there were times i felt annoyed by you, i never really hated you. No, i never hated you. You were there on my birthday. I fucked you up on your birthday. I missed the times you'd call me over nothing just to gossip. When i see you talking to others laughing away. I feel that i was a great fool to let you go. You were a great friend. I wish i handled your 'out of point conversations' without being annoyed by you. I wish i could let time rewind. I wish we were back on talking terms like how we were. Often i dream of us, being friends again. I wish... i wish...

I'M NERD. HI 8)
Let it rain, let it rain, let it rain~~

Hehaho, hello people. At last i'mz herez toz postz a proper postz? Ok not so proper. Actually... i've alot of pictures to load, but... i lost my phone's usb cable so i'm only left with my camera's pictures. But i haven't brought it along with me for the past few days/weeks so no pix! :( I couldn't find my other cam's battery carger. Harhar, i'm losing things thanks to my stm. Well. Mid year's started alr, how're you guys doing/preparing ofr it? Ha, i think no one actually gives a fuck about mid years. Only the geeky and nerdy. And here's one. Hello hello hello :) So just a quick update on what i've been up to..

Class went to the parliment's house on monday. Boy was it a bore. Stupid becca kept falling asleep. Her head in the reflection in the glass panel made it terribly hard for me to hold my laughter. But i did ok! And that day, meant alot cos i found out alot. Thanks uh, fancy us treating you as friend. And you, my close friend. I always choose the wrong friends. I am fucking disappointed in you k. If you're reading this, we'd settle this all tml. I hope we got it all wrong. Forgot what happened on weds. Thurs and fri was eng and mt mye. Was pretty fine i think. Well i can't comment cos everytime i say its easy i either do really well or bad. So idw to risk. But surprisingly i think shinese was ok. Lmaolmao but i'm not sure if i'd pass it stiill. Lol, damn subject. Rest starts on the 12th.

Weekends was nerdy for mez. Tuition on sat morning, homez, washed my fatties cage myself!!! Which somehow made me clean my mess in my room.. So i changed my bedsheets and cleared my damn table. At last i could see the table top. Below's a picture of my new cozy corner. Lmaolmaolmao. *ps canny oinkoink! See my wall, your famous drawing tehehe :* K i'mz a busy girl. Sunday waz mothers' day lunchy at my uncle's restaurant with reletives altogether. Today, i got dragged out of bed cos my mom wanted me to paint my sister's shelf. Why? Cos i said i liked painting such stuffs as they were relevant to dnt. Lololllllll wth!

When I'm Kissing You, Miranda Cosgrove

Sparks fly
Its like electricity
I might die
When I forget how to breath
You get closer and there’s
No where in this world I’d rather be
Time stops
Like everything around me
Its frozen
And nothing matters but these
Few moments when you open my mind to things
I’ve never seen

Cause when I’m kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I’ve been trying to find
Falls right into place
You’re all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I’m kissing you

When I’m kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I’ve been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I’m kissing you

Past loves
They never got very far
Walls of made sure
I’ve got in my heart
And I promise I wouldn’t do this till
I knew it was right for me

But no one (no one)
No guy that I met before
Could make me (make me)
Feel so right and secure
And have you noticed
I lose my focus
And the world around me disappears

Cause when I’m kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I’ve been trying to find
Falls right into place
You’re all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I’m kissing you

When I’m kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I’ve been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I’m kissing you

I’ve never felt nothing like this
You’re making me open up
No point in even trying to fight this
It kinda feels like it’s love

Cause when I’m kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I’ve been trying to find
Falls right into place
You’re all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I’m kissing you

When I’m kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I’ve been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
How clear it becomes
When I’m kissing you